So, I've been feeling a little different lately. I don't know that I'm really happy in my job any more. There's only so much repetition that you can go through before it becomes old. I'm going for a promotion, but I'm not even sure that it is what I want. I want to make a difference in peoples lives, not work on the luxuries of life - just fixing rich peoples toys.
I've felt a calling on my life to become a nurse. Also to work with children with cancer. It's a burden that I didn't ask for, and when I first met someone who was in that field, told her I didn't know how she did it. But now that I've come to the realization that it's what I need to do, I don't know how I'm to go about it either.
I don't know if I need to go into IT, or medicine. I just want to make a difference in peoples lives. I know I do make a difference with the work I do with my current job, but I still don't feel like it makes a difference where it needs to. I also feel led to ministry. But unless it's full time ministry, I don't know what I'd be able to do. I want to be fully devoted to what I am feeling called to do, and to the God I serve, but at this point, I don't feel that it's happening. I just feel trapped, as I don't want to put our family in any tight spot where we don't have the money we need, but I want to trust God to bring along an opportunity that I can easily see is where I need to be.
